Paige {Pittsburgh Travel Diaries} ~ Winnipeg Boudoir Photography

boudoir photography winnipegMiss Paige came up before, when I had done my post on Taco-ternity and my ode to my tum, but our session together was something special.  Paige and I had first met in San Fran and immediately clicked.  This woman has the most beautiful heart and soul and cares for everyone beyond measure.  She may seem all heart, but this babe is also full of sass.  Paige is a fierce model as well as an awesome photographer and sometimes I don't think she understands just how phenomenal she is once the camera is turned on her, but she comes to life when she talks about her clients and the women she helps overcome body image issues, in a similar fashion to me.  She embraces her curves, she openly accepts her *gasp* double chin, and she works hard to help women reach the same level of acceptance with their bodies.  What better way, though, than having your own photo shoot done to showcase your love for your bod in all it's beauty?  Also, funny story, while we were so excited to do the water shoots, I don't think Paige was expecting to get waterboarded....I accidentally pressed too hard on the hose and almost drowned the poor girl!  Anyhow, read about her experience being on the other side of the camera below:boudoir photography winnipegAs a boudoir photographer, myself, I've been fangirl stalking Teri for a while now, probably close to a year or so! When I got to meet her and work with her in San Francisco this Spring for Denise Birdsong's Stripped Down Retreat I was giddy. When we hit it off as friends, though I was ecstatic! boudoir photography winnipegIt's rare as a photographer to find other photographers that you can just chat with openly about ideas, about experiences, about being a plus size babe that wants to help empower other plus size babes. No crazy competition, no insane jealousy or cattiness. Don't believe me? Step into one of the more dramatic Facebook groups geared toward photographers. Unless you're a big, well-known name- it's easy to feel lost or like your value is less-than those around you. Teri has more creativity and talent in her little finger than most dream of having their entire lives. But never once has she made me feel less-than. Instead, she's inspired me to go the extra mile, be the extra support to my friends and clients, to give the extra compliments to strangers, and to just be an all-around better version of me. She's an overwhelming force of empowerment and positivity that effects everyone in her path! boudoir photography winnipegTeri, myself and our amazing friend Stephanie Wells (The Girlfriend Experience Boudoir) got pretty close over our weekend in San Francisco. While there, we planned a trip for Teri and I to visit with Stephanie in Pittsburgh over the summer where we would photograph a couple of model clients and take turns photographing each other.boudoir photography winnipegI've been photographed by other boudoir photographers. Each experience is completely different than the last. Being a very plus size woman, a size 24, and knowing that Teri specialized in posing and photographing plus size bodies- I was beyond excited to be photographed by her! I was actually less nervous to be photographed by her than I was to photograph my two photographer friends that I look up to so much. Teri has this way of talking to you about your body in a way that makes you feel completely at ease. boudoir photography winnipeg

Girl had me nekkid in less than 10 minutes! Let me tell you, getting nekkid was NOT on my list of things to do in Pittsburgh! 

boudoir photography winnipegTo say I was a little nervous about seeing some of the images (especially the nude ones or ones without a fully supportive bra) would be the understatement of the year. I've always thought I carried myself with a decent amount of confidence. But, when I found myself naked and vulnerable in front of Teri's camera, I actually found that I had been hiding all of (what I considered) my flaws and insecurities behind cleverly placed crops and specifically-fitted wardrobe. I had accepted my body, but had never really embraced it up until then. boudoir photography winnipegI had accepted that my boobs weren't sitting perky like they did before I had experienced 2 full pregnancies and lost 3 others. I had accepted that I have a fat belly and extra skin, I had accepted that my body is dimpled and scarred in places that I don't want it to be. All of those things I could cover up and carry on with my life and pretend like they don't exist and be confident in the appearance I was presenting to the world. But on that day- I embraced those things that I usually try to hide. And you know what? It was beautiful.boudoir photography winnipeg

I felt free. 

boudoir photography winnipegTeri sent the images over and there were tears. Over and over. I had never seen those parts of my body in all their naked glory and felt anything but disgust and hate.  Is that me? That is me! All of the little pieces that I've picked at for 28 years were laid out in front of me, and you know what? I didn't hate them. I actually loved them. Those are some of my favorite images I've ever seen of myself because they're me, they're real. My perfect imperfections and all.boudoir photography winnipegI don't know if I'll ever be able to repay Teri for the gift she gave to me that day, but I know I'm glad that fate had us cross paths and become friends. boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg  boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipegDo you want to feel free?  Are you ready to stop using size, shape or any body excuse and embrace where you are right now in this one life you are given?  If so, send me a message and let's sit down for a chat to see if we are a good fit for each other!

Kyle {San Francisco Travel Diaries} ~ Winnipeg Boudoir Photography

winnipeg male boudoir photographyKyle was one of the other male models that I had the pleasure of photographing while I was at the Stripped Down Retreat in and with him, I wanted to get weird, because hey, it was the end of the retreat and I was feeling adventurous.  Kyle gladly obliged my odd requests and we had a lot of fun just loosening up and make some really fun editorial shots.  We also managed to grab some more traditional male boudoir shots.  Enjoy!winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography winnipeg male boudoir photography

Britt { San Francisco Travel Diaries} ~ Winnipeg Boudoir Photographer

boudoir photography winnipegYou have probably seen the beautiful Britt in various locations on my website.  This babe was one of the other gorgeous women we had the pleasure of photographing at the Stripped Down workshop.  The first day, Britt wore this amazing top from Free People which took my instagram by storm when I posted it and then on day 2, I had the pleasure of photographing her again, but this time in kind of a tag-team collaborative fun shoot with my buddies, Paige Rynberg of Paige Rynberg Photography & Stephanie Wells of the Girlfriend Experience Boudoir.  The  4 of us were so high on energy that we caused a bit of attention to ourselves, but it was so much fun and it's always cool to see how other photogs shoot!  Keep scrolling to see the beauty that is Miss Britt:boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipegStripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method Stripped Down Method

Calvine {San Francisco Travel Diaries} ~ Winnipeg Boudoir Photographer

Modern Love RetreatOver the next week and so I am going to release the images that I captured while in San Francisco, learning and getting inspired by one of my mentors: Denise Birdsong, owner of Modern Love Photography & Stripped Down.  First up is the beautiful and captivating Miss Calvine.  This little beauty is French and gave me every emotion I ask for, but more importantly she has the sweetest and kindest aura ever.  See below for the gorgeousness that is Miss Calvine. d boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg boudoir photography winnipeg

Her Body Was A Means To An End {Las Vegas Diaries} ~ International Boudoir Photographer

winnipeg boudoir photographerOne of the best parts of my profession is meeting other boudoir photographers and connecting with them.  Miss S of I Am Boudoir came to our Confident Curves workshop in Las Vegas and also did a mini session with me!  After her session, she filled me in on why doing a session and why boudoir was so important to her and I knew it was a story that I had to share...winnipeg boudoir photographerMy body was a means to an end. winnipeg boudoir photographerGrowing up I experienced several instances of sexual assault, both as a child and as a teen.  I had grown men fondle me and attempt to assault me.  My high school years were ruined when a classmate tried to rape me, yet he was never disciplined. Those instances turned me into an object.  As such, I have never really trusted anyone with my body.  I always felt like my body was the means to the end.  Men just wanted my body to get what THEY wanted in the end.  winnipeg boudoir photographerI grew to hate my body.  The more I gained weight, the safer I felt.  No one wants the “fat” girl right?  I would go to a car lot to look at cars and no one would approach me. No one held doors for me, no one said hello or acknowledged me walking down the street.  I was invisible and society told me I was undesirable at my size.  winnipeg boudoir photographerI met my husband at 19 years old.  He loved me for me and tolerated all my craziness.  When we would fight and argue he would fight dirty.  Even in the dirtiest of fights and the nastiest of words, he never once mentioned my weight or called me fat.  I respected that.  It made me feel like he loved me the way I was. We were together for twenty years.  In 2011 I had weight loss surgery.  I was never comfortable with my body and wanted to make a change. We were having issues in our marriage and sex wasn’t ever on the menu, so hey, if he’s more attracted to me, bonus!  I lost approximately 80 pounds and was feeling AMAZING physically!  I was thinner than I was in high school and yet, I was more self-conscious than ever. Suddenly I wasn’t invisible anymore and I was getting attention, which made me uncomfortable. I started nit-picking every single pudge here, or crease there.  winnipeg boudoir photographerIt was at this time I discovered by husband of twenty years was cheating on me.  And not just cheating on me, but cheating on me with PROSTITUTES.  I was embarrassed and disgusted.  Was I that gross to make him pay for sex instead of pursuing me? Were that pudge and that crease the reason?  I was devastated and turned to my best friend for support, food!  Eight months later, I packed up my things while he was at work and I left.  I had also gained about 40 pounds back at that point. I realize now that I slowly packed on pounds again as a protection mechanism to keep myself from getting hurt again.  winnipeg boudoir photographerSo where am I today?  Today I have gained all 80 pounds back and weigh exactly the same as I did the day I had surgery. I am in a different space now.  Yes, I still mindlessly snack, but I don’t feel like I medicate with food anymore.  I also embrace my body the way it is.  I no longer have this innate desire to chase thinness.  I don’t care about my cellulite, or my rolls.  My body is mine.  It wakes me up every day, it hugs and squeezes my kids, and its my means to MY own end.winnipeg boudoir photographerHaving my own boudoir photos done was a way for me to embrace my body again.  It was a way to MAKE me see myself as a sexual being.  It was a way for me to feel proud of who I am today and how much I have grown emotionally.  My body is not perfect, it never will be, but its MINE and I’m so proud I can look at it today and embrace it just the way it is – all 216 pounds of it. winnipeg boudoir photographer